Why?

weird.... 
yes it's weird... From the past 2 weeks I've always asked to God:
Why am I born in Indonesia?
Why can't I born in Japan?
Why can't I be beautiful like Japanese girl?
Why must I have pimples?
Why can't I be slim?
Why can't I get a very very good grades?
Why can't I have a boyfriend or a boy that liked me?
Why can't I meet hey say jump?
Why must an earthquake and tsunami happened to Japan?
And a lot of why....why....why...why... and why....


You now... Just this second I realize that when I say "why..." it means that I'm starting to not appreciating the blessings from God... And I know that it's not a good thing... 


Every time I saw people that is better than me (rather in the look or face)... 
I always asked to God "Why can't I be like that person?" 
This situation came like when I see Japanese girls... When see them I'm always sighing and saying (more worthy to be spelled as "protest") to God... 
"Why can't I born by a Japanese, so that I can be as beautiful as them??"


But then I realize.... If I had born by a Japanese, then I can't see:
 my most lovely parents (my parents in real world)
I can't see or having a best friend like Yoan Maria Vianney (My best friend in the real world) I can't see Kenrick or William S. born in this earth (the guy I liked in the real world) 
I can't see my friends in my school (Erick, and the gang) 
and I can't see or having a family that loving me like what I have now...


So from this now on I've made a promise.... that I'll start to try to appreciate all of the blessings from God...


I wish this resolution (even this is not new year...) will come true....


Smile and JUMP always with me,
Selcy